Thursday, February 2, 2012

Drama Queens

Drama Queens. We all know one or more. If you don't, you may want to evaluate yourself and see if you are a DQ.

This has really hit home lately as my personal DQ is getting so over the top I'm finding myself screening calls to avoid talking with her or, should I say listen to her. Who could get a word in edgewise and even if I did, she's not really listening, she's only waiting to be able to tell me how her life is worse and hinting to ask her how she's doing (and you do everything you can to avoid asking that question). I actually don't feel guilty about the screening. I've learned over the years to distance myself from emotionally draining people as much as possible. But at what point do I sit her down and have a long heart to heart. As is typical of the DQ mentality, she feels that everything is hunky dory and that I am her best friend in the whole wide world and she completely misses how everyone (at least all the mutual friends I know) perceives her and her constant "demands" for attention. 

Her DQness usually takes the form of an illness. She's always sick. I never tell her anymore if my kids have the sniffles and she's planning on coming over because if she hears they have the sniffles, within 2 days she has the flu. And she never gets a common cold, it's always the flu or a sinus infection or bronchitis, etc. And she suffers from migraines. Which is awful, I'm sure, but what kind of migraines always magically appear hours before we're supposed to double date with her and her husband? Or show up the day before a planned movie marathon? She always seems just fine when they plan to go out of town. We actually haven't socialized with her and her husband in months because of these ailments. It has started to feel like the sicknesses are really excuses to not spend time with us. And it also feels a little like the boy who cried wolf after a while. I'm sure she actually is sick sometimes and does suffer from migraines sometimes, but I don't think it's as often or nearly as serious as she portrays. I firmly believe she has fallen into this pattern where she doesn't know how to get the positive attention she desires and this is the only way she knows to get any attention. 

My hubby and I adore her hubby. He's one of our best friends. We met him before they were married and he is the one who introduced us to her. Her and her hubby are the only couple we socialize with and do things with so this constant not being able to "hang out" with us is putting a small damper on our social life (good thing Hubby and I are best friends and LOVE to spend time together, but we're now brainstorming ways to meet some new couples to have fun with). Friendship is like any other relationship, it takes work from all to keep it healthy and strong and they're not at a point where they can put forth this effort, but they still feel like everything is as it always has been. So we feel our friendship is totally taken for granted.  I can't cut her out completely nor do I want to. I'd really like to see her get some kind of mental help. She can be fun when she's not always suffering some ailment. Her hubby can be the life of the party if he's given the chance to actually go out and not take care of her all the time.

I have in the past sat down with both of them and gave her a book I had read. It was an outstanding book called 

Don't Call Me a Drama Queen!: A Guide for the Overly Sensitive and Their Significant Others Who Need to Learn How to Lighten Up and Go with the Flow Dr. Debra Mandel


I had even highlighted sections. And I can hear you saying that sounds a little presumptuous (I thought so, too, truthfully), but she also claims she likes to be told these things about her. She thanked me and read it. And overall, even if it didn't help her (and it didn't. It floored her to think I saw her that way.) it helped me because I am in fact a recovering DQ.

So part of me wonders why this bugs me so much. Is it because it reminds me of where I've come from and how horrible I was and the extent I'd go to get attention and how easy it is to fall back into those old patterns? Or is it because I really care about her and want her to realize how she's ostracizing herself from others? Even if I talk to her, will she listen? She didn't last time and because I have been the only one "brave" enough to say something, I'm pretty sure she thinks it's just me. In the end you can't help someone who doesn't want or think they need help. Now, all that's left is for me to decide whether or not to speak to her about how I'm feeling. I don't think it will help her and truthfully, it's been so long since we've spent quality time together with them that I no longer miss them like I used to. Do I care enough anymore to even try? The only reason I might say yes to that is her delusion that we are besties. One, it's not nice to lead anyone on for any reason. And two, if she truly thinks of me as a bestie I should act like one and try my darndest to keep her from continuing down a path that I know from personal experience doesn't lead to everyone proving that they love you and that they care about you, it only leads to everyone tiring of your drama and distancing themselves so that in the end you're left with the one thing you feared the most , feeling alone and unloved. 

I thought writing this all out would help me come to some conclusion on what to do. It hasn't, but I do feel better and my thoughts are definitely more organized now, so I feel it will be easier to make the right decision.

To those who also have a DQ in your life, please know you are not alone and that it's ok to distance yourself from their drama. We should all strive to live simply and drama free!

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Thing 4 and Kindergarten

Wednesday was the day that I'd been dreaming of for a while. We registered Thing 4 for kindergarten in the fall!

She received her 4 shots the day before saying, "This is the BEST day of my life!"
"Why, Honey?" I asked.
"Because I get shots!" she replied.
Who was I to squash her enthusiasm! Although I did let her know that they do sting so she wouldn't be completely unprepared and her bravado lasted right up until the actual time to get the shots. She was going to go first (Thing 1 was also due for a shot) and get a sticker for every shot she had to do. As soon as we walked in the shot room, Thing 1 had to go first. Thing 1 showed no fear and didn't even flinch. I explained that the shot nurse was AWESOME and super fast and she'd been giving the shots to all the siblings since Thing 1 was a baby! Thing 4 wasn't buying it. I still think she may have been fine had her natural curiosity not got the better of her. I couldn't keep her from watching! So when she saw that little drip of blood from the 1st shot, she LOST it! Shot Nurse was super speedy as usual and administered 2 shots in each arm and had super cool band-aids in place in record time so I could begin the calm down. Anyone else notice it's not as easy to calm a 5yo after shots as it is to calm a baby? I cuddled, I rocked, I soothed with soothing words and nothing was working! I tried the sticker bribe. Nope, she no longer cared about getting those 4 stickers. We finally had to leave the shot room stickerless with a wailing 5yo. I think I prefer it happening the way I did it when I was 5. I wailed and howled like I'd been mortally wounded until I received the shot at which time the shot was not nearly as bad as I had imagined and I quieted right up when it was all done. Thing 4 wailed until we arrived home...a 20 minute drive! She still has on 2 of the 4 band-aids!


Alright, back to the registering. Hubby and I made a big deal out of it and he came home for lunch. We went to the school and signed our youngest daughter away (it felt like it after filling out all that paper work!), took some pictures (most of which she's clinging to Hubby's leg) and then took her out to lunch at a place of her choosing (which began as McDonald's but we'd managed to change her mind in the time we filled out the mass amounts of paperwork...it was still her decision LOL).
I thought I have some mixed feelings about all of this. After all, this is my youngest. I've had a child with me at home for 15 years now. But the only expression I could come up with was FREEDOM! I'll have to see if I feel the same way in the fall when Thing 4 will actually be out of the house. Maybe half day kindergarten was designed as much for the mom as the child. A slow breaking of the physical bond that we've shared for 5+ years. I do know that once they leave this house for school, they're never quite the same. They meet new people, exchange new ideas, and start to shape how they'll view the world as individuals. They no longer need us parents as much and become more independent. So, again, we'll see how I do in the fall. I'll let you all know if I actually shed tears or if I still feel the elated sense of freedom!

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Boutique Critique!

I've been suckered into the world of facebook and blog giveaways! I've been pretty lucky so far, too, winning about 1 a day. Of course this does not count the ratio of entries to wins, but I'll still consider myself lucky. :o) Anyway, most of the winnings I put into our Relay for Life gift baskets which we'll sell drawing tickets for at our event in July to raise money for the American Cancer Society. And when I do win an item and put it into the Relay Baskets (as they're affectionately known around here), I post a thank you and give kudos to the business we won from on our Relay for Life blog: Raven's Rascals. There are some winnings, though, that just don't make it into the Relay Baskets because the 5yo (known here as Thing 4) finds them utterly beautiful, princessy and too irresistible to not be in her possession. Most of these have been the hair pretties. So, I've decided these boutiques need some shout out kudos as well and figured that my Homemaker blog would be a great place for that to happen.

We had 3 different packages come our way this week and it demanded an outdoor photo shoot since it was our 1st warm, sunny day this spring. Only one of these items was an actual giveaway winning from a boutique. The other 2 boutiques sent items I purchased for the diva in training, but they also get kudos!

We won our choice of an interchangeable hair bow. If there's one thing Thing 4 likes as much as princesses, it's ballerinas! So she chose the Ballet Slipper interchangeable bow. Basically, the ballet slipper can be worn with the white bow or separately.



The bows are well made and passed what we call, the Spin Test. The Spin Test is Thing 4 spinning in the bucket spinner at the playground as fast as she can which is fast enough that we all become dizzy just from watching. The bows stayed put and when she finally stopped spinning, her hair was still in perfect position. Quite an accomplishment!

2) Next is what we're now calling the Roller Derby Diva outfit. I purchased this tutu, leg warmer, bow set from Sweetie Pie Couture. It received quite the workout today, let me tell you. And everything withstood Thing 4's constant activity beautifully! She skated, blew bubbles, played soccer, went on the slide, climbed the rock wall and more all while looking the part of the princess she so enjoys! Nothing snagged, nothing tore and this bow also passed the Spin Test! It's great to have an outfit that looks delicate and sweet, but can withstand a tough day with the Roller Derby Diva!

3) Last, but not least is an Easter Grab Bag I purchased from Little Princess Bow Boutique. It was fun opening the package and finding 3 cute bows inside! All passed the Spin Test with flying colors and all are unique in styles and colors so that they would work with a variety of outfits.





We highly recommend ALL 3 of these businesses! The owners were friendly, helpful and quick in shipping their items!

Enjoy!








Sunday, April 17, 2011

I've missed this blog!

I'm juggling so many self-inflicted projects that I've neglected what gives me a little release...this blog! I'm currently in the process of revamping it a bit and will begin to promote it soon.

I've been entering a ton of blog/facebook giveaways attempting to win items to donate to some gift baskets we intend to sell drawing tickets for to raise money for American Cancer Society (well, items that Thing 4 doesn't claim as her own...the baskets will be lacking any and all princess items and hair accessories, I can already tell!). Since I'm finding all of these great giveaways, I think I'll be adding a page shortly for you all to find them in one place. Warning, they can be addicting! While I've won some awesome items it sometimes feels like a part time job entering all of them. :o)

As to other projects taking up my time, I've started an etsy shop! Also to raise money for the ACS. Of course our Relay for Life team has it's own blog which leads me to more projects...I have 4 blogs! The Relay for Life one is the one most updated. The other 3 are feeling a little neglected. Trying to remedy that.

Why do I have 4 blogs? Well, they're each unique in the role they play in my life. This one is about my life in general. Raven's Rascals is about our etsy shop, Relay for Life and fundraising. 80 in 08 is my weight loss blog (really need to get back to that one!) and Booze and Bacon Bliss is my culinary adventures with, well, booze and bacon (also, recently neglected which one would think would help with the weight loss, but no, not so much).

And if that's not enough, I've recently began Flylady again because I was so busy promoting the shop and working on fundraising and making items for fundraising that my house was becoming chaotic and cluttered. So, I'm currently in the declutter/spring cleaning mode.

Oh, one more thing, which will be an entire post to itself I'm sure when I have more time, is we're going to be celebrating Passover this year. I've never cooked lamb, or for that matter any of the other dishes I need to cook, but I'm willing to try!

Life is never dull...always an adventure in there somewhere! I just need to find balance because I never learned how to juggle!

Well, it is 2:18am! I'm not going to find balance by not getting any sleep.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

It's 1:11am. Where are you?

I'm on the couch, sleepy, really wanting to go to bed. The problem? I'm locked out of my bedroom. Think Hubby's trying to tell me something? LOL Since he went to bed on good terms, I'm assuming it's a glitch in the thought process of someone who accidentally turned the lock. At any rate, I tried the butter knife trick to no avail. I would try the credit card trick, but my wallet is in the bedroom. I could of course knock on the door until he wakes up and lets me in, but that doesn't seem kind when he gets so little sleep as it is. And in fact his alarm will be going off in less than 3 hours at which time he'll wonder where I am, wander out here, wake me up, have a good chuckle over the whole thing and I'll get to crawl into bed and go back to sleep until my alarm goes off.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Balance in the family or The Butterfly Effect

I've witnessed a strange phenomenon today. This morning did not begin like a "usual" morning and for some reason that one act has had a butterfly effect on the entire household. I don't believe anyone is truly mad at anyone else in the house (at least not anymore), but we're all being short with each other and there's this almost palpable stress in the air which is heavy. For me, I actually feel physically exhausted carrying this stress and that's after an hour massage. I don't feel stressed, it's just what's in the air and it's oppressive.

I suppose the conclusion is that issues need to be discussed at the earliest possible time to "clear the air" (which after today has a new meaning to me). In our house, that has yet to happen, but I'm sure it will sometime soon. And then I'll be able to feel an actual weight being lifted off. I wonder if there is a way to lift this weight off yourself? Do you really need the other person involved to help? I guess you do because in weight training you should always have a spotter, why would stress weight be any different? I'm rambling, it's giving me something to do. I should probably go "clear the air", but I'm trying to decide if now is the best time. Trying to gauge how long it will take versus how long I have until company comes over. Maybe as a social experiment, since it's gone on this long, I should let it go and see if it affects company as well as household members. Think I could receive a grant to study this?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

It's all in my head...or on it?

I'm currently suffering through a bout of lividness. (Wow, apparently that really is a word as my spell check didn't tag it!) I'm angry. Angrier than a beehive that's been thrown to the ground by a honey hungry bear. And that's not my usual demeanor. I'm normally patient, kind, mellow and laid back, but I can actually feel my blood pressure rising. Probably not a good thing. In fact, I want to throw something, stomp through the house, break things, punch things do anything to relieve some of this pent up anger. But since we're going through the whole teaching the children responsibility and maturity, it wouldn't behoove me to go ranting and raving through the house. Not such a good example of responsible maturity. So, I've decided to try blogging to release some pressure. In order to effectively blog about one's anger one must analyze it.

Right off the bat, I'm angry with Hubby. How dare he be able to sleep so peacefully. Can't he see the world is actually upside down right now and I need him to help turn it the right way up? I ended all my games, my facebook, my email, basically unplugged from the online world so we could spend our designated one hour together and I was able to have 21 minutes before he was out. We will eventually make it through the book we're reading together. Anyone have young children you need to put to sleep? I'll record my voice for you to play to them because it's so soothing they'll be out in no time...or 21 minutes to be exact. I just needed some time with him to unwind. To take a deep breath and have someone take care of me and my needs. But, upon further analysis, that's not really fair of me. I mean, he's tired. He worked late, didn't even have a chance to come into the house when he came home because we were all in the van waiting for him to drive us to the kids' activity, grocery store, dinner, etc. When we finally straggled back in from all of that, his time was spent with kids brushing teeth, homework, general getting ready for bed routine. No wonder he crashed. I might have, too. My conclusion on the Hubby anger: yes, I feel a little neglected, but my anger began way before that and it is always easier to take it out on the one you love most. In truth he deserves his rest, he works very hard for us. He's off the hook and I'll quit mentally cussing him out.

Hey, I think this is helping. Where were we? Oh, yeah. I was angry before I even saw Hubby. What else happened. I knew Hubby was going to be late tonight, so I was supervising the homework/chores solo and was on my way to prepare dinner. I reached up for a pot and noticed they were askew. When your children are responsible (I'm using this term lightly under the current circumstances) for cleaning the kitchen, it is not too unusual to see things not quite up to snuff. I reached for the pot, grabbed it, started to pull it down, when in a slow motion moment, I see the heavy pot lid gracefully flutter down coming to rest ever so gently on my head. NOT! That sucker is heavy and combined with gravity I don't care how hard of a head you have (and I have a hard head or at least I've been told I'm stubborn so I'm assuming it's the same thing) it hurts like the dickens!! Instant welling of tears, horrible headache, I stagger into the bedroom and just cry. (Note to self, if you're going to drop pot lids on your head and cry, make sure you don't watch a tear-jerker movie like Toy Story 3 earlier in the day. The double crying jags do nothing to make your eyes pretty.)

Once the pain had subsided enough so that I could make a coherent sentence come out of my mouth, I round up said children and ask who put the pots away incorrectly. I should learn of course that a mother who has been crying can look pretty scary, especially to the child responsible, because they all suffered with instant short term memory loss and had no clue which one of them did it. I asked each of them how to put the pots away the right way and they could all answer correctly. Someday I'll get a grant to find out where in the child's body the correct way of doing something gets lost from brain to limbs. Anyway, I then lose it. Start crying again and let them know that the chore lists took a long time to create. They were designed to make it easier on them. They just have to start at the top and work their way down the list. In turn this makes it easier on the parents as we don't have to sit there and babysit them while they're doing the chores. On and on. And on. I'm pretty sure they heard, "Blah, blah, blah, sniff. Blah, blah, sniff, sniff." Not one of my better moments, but I didn't yell and still maintained some semblance of outward calm even with the raging headache.

I proceed to fix dinner and serve them. I let them eat without me as I had no appetite and was looking for some sanctuary I could escape to. That only lasted for a few minutes. Thing 4 is a creature of habit and enjoys family meals and the sharing of the day. She came in and asked me in her really sweet, angelic, cute way to sit and visit with her while she ate. And since there was no way she could have been responsible for the pot lid mishap, how could I break her heart and say no. I joined her.

Of course by this time the other 3 were finished eating and moved on to after dinner chores one of which is put your own dish into the dishwasher. Thing 2 neglected to do this, so Thing 1 went to his room and asked him to put the dish in the dishwasher so she could finish the kitchen. He said he would when he felt like it. This went on for a few more verbal jabs when Thing 1 gave up, slammed Thing 2's door and stomped into the kitchen. I calmly leave the table, enter Thing 2's room and gently grab him by the ear, have him stand and send him to the kitchen. I promise, it was gentle and I said not a word (I'm patting myself on the back because I was still showing restraint and patience!). A mere 15 minutes later we're in the van awaiting Hubby. He did ask me after we dropped them off why they were so quiet in the van. Needless to say it was a somber evening before he showed up.

Turns out I don't have a bump on my noggin, I have a dent. Not sure if that's better or not. But in the anger analysis, I'm now willing to chalk this day up to a lost cause or better yet, a lesson in venting anger. No point in letting the anger continue to fester and ruin tomorrow, too. Because it's true what they say, no one can make you angry, you choose to be. Right now, I'm choosing to be sleepy.